I’m writing to let you know about some big things that are happening here at New York City Relief over the next few months with regards to our family. As you may have read on my last blog post (www.thereliefbus-teamhaken.org) Chelsea and I recently found out that we will need to find a new living arrangement by June of this year. God is calling our landlord and his family back to this area and will be moving back into the house that they so graciously allowed us to call home for 2 years. This news was daunting at first and honestly, if I look at it from a human standpoint, it still is. We have three dogs and a very unique living situation that we’re convinced God has called us to continue.
Over the last few weeks I’ve been praying and crying out to God for trust and hope. We looked at homes for rent and there just doesn’t seem to be any “good” options that won’t increase our cost of living by around $500 per month. Then there was a still small voice that started to thump in my chest over and over again: “I want you to buy a house.” I ignored this voice for 2 weeks because, quite frankly, we can’t buy a house. We have no money saved up beyond what could be described as an emergency savings account, and that wouldn’t even cover closing costs. We went through some rough years financially and still have not made up the ground we lost. We don’t have time to do a lot of homework and, even if we did, we don’t have the experience needed to actually walk through this process. So, all this to say, that voice, while annoying and persistent, was hardly convincing.
Then 2 nights ago I was reading a book by one of my favorite authors and he was was sharing the story of the blind man who was crying out to Jesus while Jesus was passing by. Jesus calls to the man and asks him a simple question: “what do you want?” The blind man doesn’t even hesitate to ask for the biggest, baddest, most preposterous thing available: “Lord, I want to see.” Then the author of this book wrote this, “I think a lot of our prayers make God wonder why we think so little of him.” In that moment, I heard that voice in my chest pound louder than ever and I leaned over to Chelsea and told her, “I think God wants us to buy a house.”
So here we are, using our brand new, and soon to be useless, address labels that I ordered a month ago to tell you, our support family, that we need your prayers and support more than ever. Every year it seems that God takes us deeper into this walk of faith that we started in 2009 when we moved to New Jersey. Every year, the waves get bigger and more daunting. But this is why we do what we do. Thank you for your prayers. Thank you for your support. Thank you for walking on these waves beside us as we continue to fix our eyes on Jesus and keep moving forward.
Grace and Peace,